Well a couple weeks ago I was very stressed.  I think it's going to take me awhile to fully appreciate Christmas again.  When you have to work through the holidays, there's no magic left...  Just stress coming from all angles.

This Christmas I finally got rid of the 'best friend' that refuses to grow up and accept the fact that you're given more responsibilities as you get older...  Responsibilities that sober you up, keep you from conveniently forgetting things that don't work out in your own favour.

I'm pretty embarassed that I overlooked how one-sided our friendship really was for so long.  Better now than never, I guess.

As for the drug charge last summer, I got a discharge since we were illegally searched by conservation officers.  So I feel pretty good about that.  I only had to do 20 hours community service...  Which was kind of annoying with my work schedule.  But I think I learned my lesson.

Last summer I was pretty depressed about the charge.  But I found a new job and tried doing things that didn't make me feel as much like a loser.  It's pretty hard not to feel like you're wasting your time working full time hours for little money, when you should be going to school instead.

I dunno, I never figured I would have to try and support my older sister(s) and sometimes my parents.  I'm thinking I need to get away from my family, cuz I've proved that I can take care of myself pretty well.  It's just hard to walk away.  I'm always worried about my mom and her health.  It's not good for her to be alone with my dad, anyways.

Well 2008 was a pretty shitty year.  I hope this one is better.  I had planned to write a longer entry, but I keep getting distracted...  So maybe I'll write another entry sometime.